A Place For Souls With Holes

If you’re suffering right now, you’re in the right place.

Do you feel like you’ve been invisible your entire life?

Do you feel like you don’t belong in this world? Like no one cares as much as you do? Like the whole world is heartless and cruel?

Are you in agony from rejection, invalidation, manipulation, humiliation, criticism, contempt, abandonment, gaslighting, isolation, or abuse?

Do you feel like you’re a kind and considerate person, with a forgiving and genuine heart, yet people keep treating you as if you don’t matter? Are you being treated as if your needs aren’t important? That your feelings are wrong? That something is wrong with you?

Do people make you feel like you’re not good enough, yet at the same time you’re too much? Are you ridiculed anytime you try to open up, express yourself, or ask for help? Do you feel judged when you try to open up and express the way you feel?

Are you being condemned and ridiculed anytime you try to talk about your past pain or trauma? Have you been accused of being too emotional, having a victim mentality, or desiring a pity party just for wanting to express yourself and open up about your past?

Are you getting sick of hearing people tell you to get over it? Yet, you feel like you’ve moved on and are only trying to get close and be vulnerable about where you came from and how it’s affected you.

Do people keep lying to you, disrespecting you, taking you for granted, and not appreciating everything you do for them and the kindness that you show them? Do you feel like you’re being used, treated like a doormat, and don’t deserve it?

Have you gone your entire life feeling like you’ve never been loved right and fear that no one will ever love you, understand you, or care to know you? Do you feel like people are blind to your value and treat you like you’re unworthy? Yet, those same people who make you feel so worthless will turn around and show love and respect to someone abusive, toxic, and uncaring toward them.

Is it driving you crazy trying to figure out what’s wrong with people and what’s wrong with you? Why can’t you invoke the desire for people to treat you right? Why is it so easy for other people to be treated fairly but you keep getting screwed over?

Are you sick of hearing useless advice like “You gotta love yourself first”, “you need to teach people how to treat you”, “you shouldn’t let it bother you”,  “No one can make you feel anything you don’t want to”, “you need to get over it”, “you’re overreacting “, “you’re too emotional”, or “you need to control yourself”.

If you are over being treated this way and feeling like this, then you’re in the right place.

I can help you. I promise to give you all the answers you’ve been looking for. It’s not going to be easy. You’re going to need to be brutally honest with yourself. You’ll have to examine moments in your life that you have fought to forget. And it’s going to hurt. A lot. But I promise you that it’ll be worth it. On the other side of this misery is everything you know in your heart that you deserve and are worthy of.

But first I need you to promise me one thing, because nothing will change if you can’t be 100% committed to keeping this promise…

About Holey House

Simply put, this website is about trauma. In the pages to come, you will find information about the symptoms of trauma, the long-term effects trauma has on your relationships and your life, information about trauma’s connection to mental illness, and resources to help you heal.

The signs and symptoms of trauma are slippery little sneaky buggers to pin down. Acknowledging the long-term effects of trauma may take some individuals decades, while others will die never understanding the impact that trauma has had on their life, their well-being, and their loved ones.

The pain I felt forced me to face the reality of the impact that trauma had on my life. I had been suffering for so long that I wasn’t able to take it anymore. I knew there was something “wrong with me,” but I was never able to identify what it was. I couldn’t relate to other people and they didn’t understand me.

I honestly never suspected that trauma was at the core of my issues. I believed that I had dealt with and had “gotten over” all of the things I went through. I was in denial of the number of problems I had.

The name “Holey House” refers to the soul. When we are born our spirit is full and healthy. As we live and suffer through trauma, our soul energy is hacked away. With each new injury, the core of our being takes on more damage. I envision it like a once majestic tree that has been hammered away by woodpeckers. Over the years, these holes have turned the soul into something that looks a lot like Swiss cheese. Repeated, prolonged, and extensive trauma turns what was once holy into something that is now holey.

Many of us, including myself, attempt to fill these holes. We try to ignore these holes. We search for answers in all of the wrong places to heal these holes. Our efforts are in vain and along the way we take on additional damage.

There is only one way that a damaged soul is able to heal. That is through careful examination of the injury itself and confronting the lie that we have embodied as truth as a result of it. While it is ideal to have the support of friends, family, or even a lover to help you on this painful journey it’s unfortunately rare to find an individual healthy enough or willing enough to accompany you.

Holey House is my attempt at a solution. It is my hope that I can share with you everything I’ve learned on my path to healing. I will share with you everything I’ve discovered thus far on my journey, so that you may heal even faster. The more you are able to understand the nature of your traumas and the long-term effects they still have on you the better position you will be in to finally heal all of your souls holes.

Welcome to the Age of Aquarius

January 20th, 2024

The Age of Aquarius began on January 20th, 2024, bringing major shifts and affecting potential and global operations. This period emphasizes increased calmness, artistic flair, and sociability, encouraging peace, humanitarianism, warmth, and love. The forward-thinking and innovative nature of Aquarius is heightened, requiring an open-minded and progressive approach. It’s a time to embrace eccentricities, explore new forms of self-expression, and delve into unconventional subjects like science, astrology, and spiritual studies.

Consciousness becomes the new currency in this age, with success no longer defined by material accumulation. Pluto’s transition from Capricorn to Aquarius marks a shift from exposing financial systems’ shadows to embracing revolutionary energy and innovative ideas. The retrograde motion of Pluto between Aquarius and Capricorn in 2024 symbolizes letting go of the old and embracing the new.

Aquarius’s humanitarian archetype promotes equality, objectivity, and diversity, placing the spotlight on individuality and living outside conventional norms. As a collective, humanity will undergo a profound transformation, requiring a commitment to love instead of fear. The text emphasizes the need to let go of limiting beliefs and embrace inner feelings, urging readers to rise above outdated thinking and trust their intuition.

Profound energies, signs, and synchronicities guide individuals toward the right commitments. Pluto’s transformative power will reveal hidden truths, cleanse, and restore balance, with a similar energy expected as in March 2023. Old systems and hierarchies will crumble, making way for a new era where passion and power serve a greater purpose with love and compassion.

The text concludes by posing introspective questions, urging readers to assess their commitments, nourish their souls, evolve, and connect to a purpose greater than themselves. Embracing change and committing to authentic intentions will fuel individuals with energy and exuberance, aligning their contributions with their true power.

On Saturday, January 20th, 2024:

  • A new era begins as Pluto enters Aquarius, ushering in significant shifts that affect potential and global dynamics.

The Age of Aquarius signifies:

  • Increased even-temperedness, artistic flair, and sociability.
  • Encouragement of peace, humanitarianism, warmth, and love.
  • Heightened forward-thinking and innovative qualities.

To effectively utilize this energy:

  • Embrace an open-minded and progressive approach to life.
  • Maintain a composed and confident demeanor for smoother social interactions.
  • Fearlessly explore new forms of self-expression and eccentricities.

This period is ideal for:

  • Delving into unconventional subjects like science, astrology, spirituality, and occultism.
  • Cultivating an investigative nature and thirst for knowledge.

Embrace the Age of Aquarius by:

  • Co-creating with its energy and building a new life.
  • Accepting and embracing your most foundational self.
  • Raising your consciousness and connecting with others.
  • Letting go of mindsets and paradigms that hinder progress.

The Age of Aquarius ushers in a shift:

  • Consciousness becomes the new currency, and success is no longer defined by material accumulation.

Pluto, the planet with the largest orbit, represents:

  • Transformation through death and rebirth, revealing the shadow side of what it touches.
  • The ending of the Age of Capricorn, exposing the shadow side of financial and other systems.

The Age of Aquarius signifies:

  • Consciousness, revolutionary energy, and innovative ideas.
  • A time of profound transformation and the potential for revolutionary change.

Pluto’s retrograde period from September 1st to November 19th:

  • Coincides with the U.S. presidential election.
  • Marks the last time Pluto will be in Capricorn for the next 19 years.

Aquarius has a humanitarian archetype that promotes:

  • Equality and objectivity, affecting systems from individual to collective levels.
  • Diversity, embodying uniqueness, and living outside the box.

The collective transformation in consciousness:

  • A crucial time to clarify commitments and choose between living in fear or embracing the coming age of love.

Last year’s revelations:

  • Awareness of limiting beliefs, fear, and the surrender of power in relationships, systems, and mindsets.

The challenges and opportunities of change:

  • Embracing change and facing discomfort or clinging to the familiar.
  • Confronting fears of the unknown and embracing personal growth.

The power of intentions in this transformative period:

  • Setting intentions not just for 2024 but for the rest of your life.
  • Evaluating commitments, letting go of outdated thinking, and trusting your intuition.

Pluto’s transformative effects:

  • Shadow energies will emerge, hidden things will be revealed, and imbalances will be rectified.
  • Healing and destruction of what isn’t working or is out of balance.

Reflecting on March 2023:

  • Expect similar energies and challenges during Pluto’s transit in Aquarius.

Entering a new era:

  • Old ways and hierarchies are collapsing, and new systems are emerging.
  • A collective shift toward passion, power, love, and compassion.

Key questions to ask yourself:

  • Am I moving forward with humanity’s new direction?
  • Am I nourishing my soul and evolving?
  • Am I connected to a purpose greater than myself?

Embracing change and committing to authenticity:

  • Directing energy and commitment toward what is right for you.
  • Manifesting authentic intentions with exuberance and fulfillment.

The significance of personal power:

  • Relating contributions in life to the responsible use of power.
  • Taking responsibility for yourself and others in this transformative period.